cheers, indeed: a hope and an afterword.

i see what sio means in her post below, and i guess in many ways she's hit some spots which i failed to qualify in my earlier post. just like to say that i personally learnt a great deal of things from nus and was very glad to have gone to university, because like sio, i too enjoy the opportunities abundant in structured education. some might not know, but i had actually planned to join the ranks of the working class post-full-time national service, believing then that there was nothing more institutions could offer me that i couldn't learn on my own through sheer tenacity and diligence. (at that point, as evidenced, i was also highly deluded into thinking that i was very self-motivated and hardworking...)

this might sound like male-cow droppings, but even amelia's listing of the deadlines ahead of her doesn't completely turn me off. something about actually having been there--but purely in terms of only the workload/ busy scheduling, not the evolved culture of school now--in the past that allows me the clarity to see and know that, you know what, at the end of the day, things will actually be okay.

all that said, i guess what i really meant to say in my earlier post--and obviously failing miserably--is that i do wish my personal life hadn't taken on such a dramatic turn to have soured everything. i'm a person of moderate temperament who truly means it say when i go "i'm okay; things could be better, but they can also be worse", but it's actually still that personal madness, which inevitably became irrevocably entwined with my time in aki@nus, that i'd unflinchingly be glad is over.

somewhat.

[hah! i guess that tentative "somewhat" goes to show just how much i'm aware of the mystery of tomorrow as sio predicts, though all at once, i remain hopeful. in that vein -- in an attempt to stay hopeful and positive, this is likely the last time i'd write about this here.]

before i end for the hour, let me just leave another reminiscent photo of where sio and i spent a great part of our last semester; seeing how yk seems to like our area so much, this photo is especially dedicated to him: